05/05/2015

some of us are
squashed Potential
bent over ourselves,
tucked deep beneath
our insecurities.
captive to the fears
we've allowed to bathe
ourselves in

Reminder

We are not immortal.

Far from it

Fragile.

Oh Hello Again

12/09/2014

You had been the stuff of my poems, immortalized in my literature.

I had forgotten you were real.

Bail Out

12/01/2014

At the first sign of reality, I start tossing all hopes out the window. I look out and watch them fall south of my heart, then dip my head back inside before I can hear the sound of them breaking.

Poison

10/22/2014

I think our hands are poison.

We lay our hands in the water

And contaminate streams.

I watch the heart of the ocean turn black

And the surrounding trees die by the riverside

Thirsty roots desperately crawl towards the edge of the water

Drained ever bone dry

At the touch of ironic moisture.

I wonder what did we do?

And where did it all go wrong?

When all we started with was love

When you pray for me

I am suspended upon the breath of your lips

The roll and lull of each pleading

That I no longer remember are mine.

I am a crumpled mess of tired trying

Befriending the coolness of this floor

And I'm not sure I can try this hard anymore.

But then I feel the way of your words

Upon warmed in the receiving hand of the Lord

Roll and tuck themselves beneath these heavy arms and aching head

And I am lifted ever so gently without my knowing

'til my eyes have settled above the base of this floor

And my gaze is upon His face once more

And I remember Him

My Lord my Love.

I stand

I walk

He tells me I will learn to dance again.

Seasonal

The Cold rolls in beneath the folds of my bedsheets

Afflicting my lungs with a sudden ferocity

As It announces that It is indeed here.

I watch the Sun recede from my window

taking with it my memories of summer

and in my lucid paralysis I am replaced with an all too familiar fear.

I lie here with an overwhelming need for death,

so I can just stop

trying.

My blood is only warmed by my anger that the Lord has demanded

that I remain here

on this side of Life.

I have become unlovable. and will be unloved.