safe space :)

I have been so blessed and humbled by beautiful company especially in this past month.

I do not know how or when I opened my arms to receive so much love, but God granted it to me regardless. I am so inlove with the depths and beauty of each personality of each heart that beats within proximity. I feel my own heart warming and opening and discovering and breathing sighs of relief and awe. Can I be so deserving to walk amongst giants?

The question is unimportant. I am blessed nonetheless and I am grateful.

One of the topics on my mind recently is the question of permission to be ourselves. It's one thing to be around people who are so free and accepting that they create a safe space for others to let their personalities breathe. The warmth of these beautiful persons I find so addictive because I am admittedly guilty of finding excuses and permission to be myself. But it's another thing to not have to ask for permission.

Why must we fall under the trap of often looking to each other for validation and acceptance to let our own energies run unhindered? For fear that we could be wrong or could impede upon others? This is wrong thinking -- there's more than enough space in this universe to let our own brilliance shine. We were not made by God to impede - we were made for contribution. So why seek permission?

When permission was granted the moment we first took breath.

"Spring Forward, Fall Back" - another TTC poem

On my way home today in the streetcar, I looked up and found this poem by Troy Jollimore. Absolutely loved it. Enjoy. :)

Spring Forward, Fall Back
In November, the hours are slower;
winding down weather, the fresh lather
of a first snow. The winter,
with its months of hospital afternoons

waits huddled just over the border.
And ice will make all the distances
that much further. Speak now, kiss now
before the river freezes altogether.
                                                    -  Troy Jollimore